[ He doesn't stumble this time, just looks at Derek with an expression that might be a little sad. ]

It would make things so much easier. [ His ability to help, his feelings for Derek, but he doesn't know if he can, if he wants to risk it. He also doesn't want Derek to want him just because he's like him. ]

But all that crap with Jackson, everything --. I just want to be me. [ And if that's not good enough for anyone then he'll deal. ]