[ At least he's used to the panic, what he isn't used to is the urge to protect Derek. The curse is making everyone crazy and Stiles can see why. Even without his own ghouls he's still on the edge of terror every single second. But Derek - he had to kill Laura and since then Stiles has been waiting for some kind of hideous aftermath. ]
Where are you going? [ Sitting on the hood of his jeep and bouncing the end of the bat off his muddy and blood soaked shoe. Derek's shape fills out the door and casts a shadow on the grass below. ]
[ He should leave him alone. Derek doesn't need Stiles leaking care and worry all over him, not at a time like this. So Stiles should just let him have his moment and fade back into the obscurity of their not quite friendship. But he knows how haunted Derek had looked after --.
He slides off the jeep hood without a word, swinging the bat up so it rests on his shoulder. ] I'm coming with.
[ He doesn't stumble this time, just looks at Derek with an expression that might be a little sad. ]
It would make things so much easier. [ His ability to help, his feelings for Derek, but he doesn't know if he can, if he wants to risk it. He also doesn't want Derek to want him just because he's like him. ]
But all that crap with Jackson, everything --. I just want to be me. [ And if that's not good enough for anyone then he'll deal. ]
What with all the crazy life changing moments in our lives I kind of think we don't want to add another.
[ He'd have to learn, wouldn't he? To control it, to be less than anger and more Stiles again. They don't have the time. Not now. ] Besides, what good would I be as an untrained beta when we get attacked every other day.
[ Trailing after him, gaze sliding over the line of the trees and back to Derek. He's trying to be light on his feet, as quiet as he possibly could be. ]
Do you think they'll start moving towards the woods soon?
[ Slightly impressed by that he-man level of strength ... okay, seriously impressed but he's not telling. ] I don't think there's a correlation of people they're hunting, it's more who.
[ But he doesn't want to be right, doesn't want to have to face something like that again. ]
[ He watches him, gaze tipped up to the trees for a moment. He wonders if this is what life might have been like if they'd trusted each other from the beginning, protecting Beacon Hills and working as a unit. ]
It's fight or flight, right? Isaac's kind of stuck in flight because his dad died before he even got used to the bite. He doesn't know he can win, he's still a scared kid.
Peter came back from the dead and then he followed me.
[Derek still beat the crap out of him wait why is he only thinking this]
I beat the crap out of him when he showed up at my house, and oh, when I was a teenager, he used to get me out of school and sneak me beers, not lock me in a freezer.
[ He didn't want to talk about it, but he's trying to make Derek see. ] And sure, you beat him up because that's what you do, you punch your feelings. But he was there, right? He was there and he helped you make up a plan and you let him.
[ Kicking dirt up with his boot. ] No matter how hard your family hurts you, they're still your family.
[ Jesus Christ he has had enough of werewolves and their inability to be logical. Twisting to glare at him. ] I'm just saying you can't expect Isaac to automatically be able to kill his dad no matter what he's done. Isaac's seventeen, he's new to this, he's not you.
I do, I get it, I get that our lives are just one horrifying incident after another, what I don't get is that you're incapable of taking in anyone else's feelings.
[ Stomping. ] Everything sucks, we don't have to make it suck even more by being an asshole all the time.
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Where are you going? [ Sitting on the hood of his jeep and bouncing the end of the bat off his muddy and blood soaked shoe. Derek's shape fills out the door and casts a shadow on the grass below. ]
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[He's been quieter than usual, but not crankier or meaner. There's something sad there, now]
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He slides off the jeep hood without a word, swinging the bat up so it rests on his shoulder. ] I'm coming with.
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He wants Stiles. It's not simple. It's not easy. But it could be easier. He helped him with Laura, and now he'll help him again.]
Do you want the bite?
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It would make things so much easier. [ His ability to help, his feelings for Derek, but he doesn't know if he can, if he wants to risk it. He also doesn't want Derek to want him just because he's like him. ]
But all that crap with Jackson, everything --. I just want to be me. [ And if that's not good enough for anyone then he'll deal. ]
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What happened with Jackson won't happen with you.
You'd never have to doubt you're pack.
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[ He'd have to learn, wouldn't he? To control it, to be less than anger and more Stiles again. They don't have the time. Not now. ] Besides, what good would I be as an untrained beta when we get attacked every other day.
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But he doesn't say anything, just nods]
Come on.
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Do you think they'll start moving towards the woods soon?
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[But he's grabbing a fallen tree and dragging it.]
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[ But he doesn't want to be right, doesn't want to have to face something like that again. ]
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[ Rubbing the back of his neck and screwing his face up as his fingers come away smeared with dirt. ] Do you think he's going to cope with this?
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I think he's going to have to.
[Not the most understanding.]
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It's fight or flight, right? Isaac's kind of stuck in flight because his dad died before he even got used to the bite. He doesn't know he can win, he's still a scared kid.
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[Isaac does but Isaac remembers more of his dad than that.]
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Then very quietly. ] And you still let Peter back into your life.
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Peter came back from the dead and then he followed me.
[Derek still beat the crap out of him wait why is he only thinking this]
I beat the crap out of him when he showed up at my house, and oh, when I was a teenager, he used to get me out of school and sneak me beers, not lock me in a freezer.
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[ He didn't want to talk about it, but he's trying to make Derek see. ] And sure, you beat him up because that's what you do, you punch your feelings. But he was there, right? He was there and he helped you make up a plan and you let him.
[ Kicking dirt up with his boot. ] No matter how hard your family hurts you, they're still your family.
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[Oh, this is a dangerous place, Stiles]
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[ Jesus Christ he has had enough of werewolves and their inability to be logical. Twisting to glare at him. ] I'm just saying you can't expect Isaac to automatically be able to kill his dad no matter what he's done. Isaac's seventeen, he's new to this, he's not you.
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[Oh, and how he's roaring, he's so mad. Maybe that's what this has been about the whole time.]
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I do, I get it, I get that our lives are just one horrifying incident after another, what I don't get is that you're incapable of taking in anyone else's feelings.
[ Stomping. ] Everything sucks, we don't have to make it suck even more by being an asshole all the time.
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