[ Now he just looks a little embarrassed. Because he's so used to subterfuge. ] But speaking of. There's a cabin in the woods. Ginny told me I used to use it when I was here last. It's warded for um, for the moon. I meant to talk to you about it before the other night but I'd been so busy fretting I just forgot.
It's -- well, the wards would stop you from finding it yourself? You can't see it on the map and the magic would push you away if you were walking near it. I can show you though.
[ He looks up at that. ] I did? I never said thank you though, I should have.
I thought it was because the wolf part of my brain works differently? But -. I don't know, all I've ever looked for is a cure. I've never tried to figure it out before.
[ He hugs his chest in an almost defensive gesture. ]
I used to think it hurt so bad simply because the man who bit me wanted it to. I just don't know how I'm supposed to accept something like that? Because it's not just me it hurts, but my parents too.
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[ Now he just looks a little embarrassed. Because he's so used to subterfuge. ] But speaking of. There's a cabin in the woods. Ginny told me I used to use it when I was here last. It's warded for um, for the moon. I meant to talk to you about it before the other night but I'd been so busy fretting I just forgot.
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You responded to me, though. If you got out, I could get you back.
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[ He looks up at that. ] I did? I never said thank you though, I should have.
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You didn't like it, at first, but by the end of the night you were responding.
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[ But to know he did eventually is a good sign. ]
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[ His frown deepening. ]
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[He asks a little gruffly buuuut]
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Do you want to remember?
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[Because Derek knows that a lot of what the wolf feels is what the man feels, too.]
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Yes. Merlin knows I do. I wish I could just get rid of it.
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You hate something that much, of course it's going to be angry.
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[ Remus deals with it, he does. He tries to. ]
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But it's not something separate from you.
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[ He's not being rude. Or sarcastic. He's just being Remus. ]
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We're different, but my wolves, they all understand that they have to accept that part of who they are.
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I used to think it hurt so bad simply because the man who bit me wanted it to. I just don't know how I'm supposed to accept something like that? Because it's not just me it hurts, but my parents too.
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